Facade

Have you ever had the feeling when you are too angry to be angry?
When you want to blame everything on that one person, but suddenly you don't anymore?
Like a balloon with holes; you can never inflate it.

What's the reason behind it?
Have I grown up to realize that not all the faults are to be blamed?
That I have come to agreement with whatever I have,
and accept whatever I can't have?

Or have I got used to the pains,
that I no longer feel them as raw as before?

But why do I feel like crying, when there's no tears at all?
Why do I feel vulnerable inside, and yet appear stronger than before?

Why is it that now, I have no idea how to feel anymore?
I have so many questions, and yet I don't know what they are.

If I were to tear away my strong pretense, I would crumble like pastries.
If I hold on to my strong facade, will my weaker counterpart ever catch up?

I have many things to say, yet did nothing to voice them out.
What is it that's holding me back?

Sometimes I indulge myself in self-pity,
but seconds later I give myself a tight mental slap.

No, I will not give in to my weaker self.
It's time to catch up.
time to be strong.

I Love Cody! ♥♥

Hey all! How's your CNY (for the Chinese) and your "break" (for the rest) going?

I have been wanting to update my blog for quite some time but I just can't put my thoughts into words. Well, when I "think" about something, it's just my brain processing every thing which I can't find words to describe.

Anyway thought I should write something ~ Today is a special night because Cody is sleeping with me! Kor Kor and Jie Jie are both going to Malaysia so he's sleeping with me for the night. This little boy was whimpering and walking about, wanting me to let him out of my room. Finally he's asleep beside me (can't take picture 'cus it's dark now).

Sometimes he snores a while which I find pretty amusing because it sounded exactly like human snores. xD Well, what was I expecting seriously. xD

CNY this year is pretty rushed today and I couldn't enjoy it fully. I have not done my project (Sadly T.T) and there's a test on the coming Tuesday (which I haven't revised yet ;A;).

These past few days I have been making song covers because of Kai Wen and we both uploaded it on YouTube. Kai Wen have more covers so do check out her YouTube channel: thMercuryWen! :D

Here's one of Kai Wen's cover! She sand Miracle In December by EXO (chinese ver) :D Enjoy!!

And here's mine! I covered Warrior by Demi Lovato. Dedicated to all my friends!

"Be strong and let it go"

This song is really meaningful and I hope you will go check out the original song! Mine's a bit.... you know.... haha...

Hopefully you guys' ear won't rot! :P

So.... that's all for now! My next post will most probably be on CNY so... look forward! (I don't know when I will update tho! Pretty busy with school work... Sorry!!! >~<)

Cheers! Enny

祝大家马年快乐!
万事如意
年年有余
。。and 天天快乐啊！

Translation:
Wish everybody a Happy Horse Year!
Ten thousand Everything As Plan
Year Year Got (Fish)
.. and Sky Sky Fast Happy Ah!
(Kidding! ^The above just mean "Good Luck and Everyday Happy"!) XD