"I miss home and I can't wait to be back"

I'm not feeling normal today. Somehow I just don't feel like interacting with anybody and don't feel like talking at all. It's not as if I'm having a bad day (though the weather is pretty gloomy this morning, I wonder if it's affecting me somehow?), or I'm having PMS. No. It's just one of those times where I just want to keep to myself.

Then again, I'm also wondering why do my parents or friends ask me these questions:

"Do you want to come back home?" "Do you miss us?" 

Of course I want to go back home. Of course I miss those I care. It's really hard for me to smile and say "yes, I want to go back home". Because while that is my true feelings, I'm not exactly happy to say it. 

What are you questioning me for when you ask those questions? Or are you trying to reassure yourselves that I'm missing home and I want to go back home? Whenever I say that "I want to go back home" to my parents, I always have the urge to cry there and then. 

But I can't because I will make them worry about me. 

I don't usually tell people how I'm truly feeling unless you are somebody I trust greatly. But I do need to get this off my mind. (Though my parents won't see this post... I do appreciate their accompany through Skype. But sometimes the questions they ask... I find it hard to laugh it off.) 

Please, if you want to ask me questions, don't ask me if I miss home or not. I know it may sound ridiculous but it is easier to handle homesickness when I don't have to keep answering people "I miss home" etc. 

I know and appreciate your thoughts behind those words, and I thank you. 

It's May now and I have always been thinking about my journey back home since March. 

So I hereby say "I miss home and I can't wait to be back".

Cheers,

Wei Ting