"All I want is to be anything but I'm nothing."

That's how I feel when I see the people around me playing musical instruments. 

Those lucid notes; sometimes flowing, sometimes skipping, sometimes not at all. 

I just can't get enough of them. 

Since young, I have been wanting to learn at least one musical instrument and be really good at it. 

Not just good but really good. 

To the extent of performing in top-notch concert halls.

To the extent of meeting top-notch musicians from all over the world. 

But at this point of time, all I can think is "It's too late." 

It's too late to achieve what I want. 

After all the world is a competitive world. 

All I can be is a casual musician. 

Playing music only for myself and the people around me. 

I guess that should be enough.

That should be alright for me. 

And at the same time, I will sing for myself.

And then I will sing for my family, my friends and the generations to come. 

I will sing and play and spread my love for music. 

At the end of the day it won't be all or nothing.

At the end of the day the first sentence will change.

"All I want is to be anything, but I'm nothing compared to anything. I'm something." 

:) 

Busy Bumblebee ~

Since I woke up so early today, I thought I should just update my blog a little.

It has been a busy month for me, and it will get busier the next few months because I have planned to do a lot of stuff.

Last Saturday I went for 2 volunteer interviews, PAssion North Run and BNP Paribas WTA Finals. Good news is I got in for both events. I'm really excited for the latter especially because this is the first time I'm volunteering for such a grand event. What is that event about? It's a tennis tournament for women all over the world. Really excited because I get to see professional players up-close! And this is also the first time it's held in Singapore so I'm really glad to be part of the final force for this event. :)



Another thing that I'm currently active in now is 围棋（Wéiqí）. It's a board game that uses black and white stones. No idea how I'm going to explain this game actually so I shall just post a picture of it. 

Taken from Wiki

I have been playing this game on/off since 2009. Not exactly 5 years since I stopped for quite some time when I was in sec 4 and poly year 1/2. It was only when I went for the overseas intern that I got back my interest for this game.

While I was over in Liverpool, I decided to join an online competition organised by Singapore Weiqi Association (SWA). It's my first ever competition and I got 4th. x) This really gave me the confidence and also boosted my passion for weiqi. 

This coming weekend (13/14 Sep), I'm participating in a team competition held by SP aka SP open. Finally in my 3 years in Ngee Ann, I'm "representing" NP in a competition. The reason why I got in is also because weiqi is not a very well known mindsport in Singapore anyway. But still, I get to represent my school which further fuel my desire to improve. 

There's also an upcoming competition in Thailand which I have joined. Hopefully I will be strong enough by then to help my team win something! Can't wait!

Oh I'm also starting to be active in gym with my gym mate, Xue Ying. It really feels good to sweat because you exercised and not because of the weather. And because of the gym session I have been sleeping early which led me to waking up super early like 5am in the morning. :'D But it's good for my body so I shall not complain about it. x) 

It's gonna be a busy year for me but I know it will be a memorable journey for me. Last year of poly and I'm joining so many stuff.... I CAN DO IT! 

Cheers, 

Wei Ting

我的生日！！

Yesterday marks the beginning of my 19 years of life. Throughout my life I have met many people, and I can really say that I'm very blessed with good friends. Friends who are sincere. Friends who are true to themselves and others. Friends who made an effort to be friends with me.

This year I decided to privatize my birth date on Facebook so people can't see when my birthday is. I just find that wishing someone "Happy Birthday" because you are reminded to by FB is not sincere enough. That's why I have stopped doing so for quite a while. It's not that I do not wish to wish them a Happy Birthday but I just feel that I would rather not be prompted by FB to send wishes to others.

First to wish me happy birthday was my dearest sister AKA "Hubby". She called me around 12am when I was still on the MRT on the way back home after NDP. I was really touched and would have continued to talk to her on the phone if not for my low battery.

Thank you very much my dearest sister. By now you should know that our relationship is a very special one, and that our bond has been built by tears and laughter, time and effort. Thank you very much for entering into my life! ♥ It's really fate that brought us together because I could have chosen a nearer secondary school but I did not. :) If I didn't get into Hua Yi, I wouldn't have met you, Si Xian, Jing Wen and Shi Ling. :) 

LOVE YA GIRLS! ♥♥

Second wish was from my sleepy mother~ She woke up when I entered her room and mumbled a "Happy Birthday to you" before going back to sleep again. x) 

Third was from Teck Wei, my 围棋师父. Thank you once again! We haven't met for long but it does seems like we have met for quite a long while. :) 

There are many more wishes from my friends and family but it will be kinda long to list them down xD Thanks everybody!

In the afternoon I got a surprise from my poly clique. It seems they always managed to catch me off-guard, when I'm in my most "auntie" style. ~ I cried because I was really surprised and touched by them. Told them not to come but they still did and they got me 9 cupcakes from Twelve Cupcakes!! 

From left: Emelia, Hui Ying, Yeong Cheng, Me, Xue Ying, Wen Rin

I ate 2!! Guess which? XD
Someone managed to guess both correctly so it's possible to guess them correctly! :P 

From Emelia, Wen Rin, Hui Ying & Yeong Cheng

I cried again when I saw this.
This parrot was made by Emelia
and it really reminds me of Sunny,
who passed away last year.
I miss you Sunny. Fly free and we will always love you! ♥

Yellow card from Xue Ying
Red card from Kristal
Cake card from Wen Been (Wen Rin's brother) 

From Wen Been :D

In the evening, I had a mini celebration with a cake decorated by my second brother and his girlfriend, Stephanie Jie Jie.

Thank goodness they didn't buy any birthday cake because there's already a lot of cakes in our fridge. x.x

Before my day ended, I was asked by Si Xian to go read her blog. I did and I cried. Again. Sheesh! It's my birthday and I'm crying way too much haha! Thank you my "youngest daughter"~

Yes we should do a duet and yes let's stay single together!!! :D When you are able to go overseas without your parents we shall go some place to hike hike hike!! :DDD

Looking forward to this Saturday when you all will be coming to stayover at my house! We shall have some girls' time again, HTHT, gossip, and get silly!!!

LOVE YOU ALL MY FRIENDS!! MUAH MUAH MUAH! ♥♥♥♥♥♥ *Flying kisses all over* ;D

Cheers,
A happy 19 year old girl :) 

♥ My Beloved Concourse 2 ♥

I'm really glad to have decided to sign up for this year NDP. At first I couldn't volunteer for this year's NDP because I was still over at Liverpool for internship. But Heartware opened up the registration again when I came back to Singapore. Thanks to this, I managed to meet my beloved friends from concourse 2. ♥

We all started out as strangers. Still trying to match the names we have on the whatsapp group to the face of the person in real life. I know I didn't exactly try to mingle with you guys at first because it's pretty tiring to go through all the "Hi I'm XXX, what's your name?" etc. Still we managed to get closer while we were doing our duties. Working together really brings us closer to one another. :)

Still missing Shin (one of our group ldr), Sara, Nora & Joyce

From top left: Jun De, Khairee, Clarke, Kang Sheng, Jing Zhe, Frederick
Middle: Carol, Qira, Haziqah
Bottom: Chen Lin, Ki, Yana, Sarah (our group ldr!), Me, Jia Yi

This is the very first photo we took together. When we still didn't know how crazy we would get. We all look pretty innocent here don't you think? ;) 

When work starts, some of our pranks start to show themselves too! Most of the pranks are by Fred and Yana, the 99 babies. ~ 

Oh and since we were told not to take selfie when we are working, we decided to take many selfies before and after our duties. Not too bad~ We aren't breaking any rules here! :D 

There are a lot of photos but I decided to post only a few.

Combined Rehearsal 3:

NE show 1:

NE show 3 (deployed to Woodlands Primary School):

*Disclaimer* We didn't bully Fred! He himself chose to do this and we merely help him out. *snickers*

Preview:

Here Shin, our another leader, appeared! xD Still can't see Nora because she's always late ~

Top from left: Jing Zhe, SHIN, Khairee, Chen Lin, Kang Sheng
Middle: Jun De, Sarah, Haziqah, JOYCE, Me, SARA
Bottom: Jia Yi, Yana, Fred, Ki

Actual Day:

Photobombed by this........ weird guy ... 

NORA in blue (second picture)
Yes Nora is a Chinese HAHA! 

We had many more crazy selfies, mostly by Fred and Yana again, because they are usually the ones with the monopod. But my phone do not have enough memory space so I had to delete quite a lot. ><

But I'm really glad for this bunch of monkeys and old "souls" for this wonderful volunteer experience. It's my second and best ever. :) Hope we will meet again for next year NDP and cheers to more outings in future!! :D

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Flame of Life

It is always easy to be displease with oneself, others, and other things.

It is always easy to compare yourself with someone better.

It is always easy to find oneself lacking in one way or another.

It is always easy to just find the faults.

Everybody wants to move forward.

Everybody wants to be better.

Everybody craves for more.

But stop to look around.

Stop, to appreciate what you have now.

Stop, to be thankful for the flame of life you have now.

This flame of life allows you to go on.

So don't go treating it badly.

One day this flame will be taken away from you.

So till then, hold onto it tightly.

And enjoy what this little flame of life can bring to you.

Chef and the apprentice

Since I do not have to go to school today, I decided to help my mom with cooking. Finally time for me to show my "skills" in cooking! (Actually all I did was cut the vegetables and cut some more. :D)

Someday I do want to be able to cook on my own though~ Told my mom that she can "retire" and not cook anymore since our family have 4 new cooks, namely my elder brother, Mona (his gf), my second brother and his gf (Stephanie).

The first pair cook mostly spicy food, since Mona is from China and loves spicy food. The second pair cook just about anything they can find on YouTube (just like me!).

So then I told my mom, "Maybe I should focus on Japanese/ Korean cuisine, so you can enjoy all different kind of cuisine". *laughs*

If only our kitchen is big enough for 6 different cooks (including me) ~

Anyway here's the picture for today's adventure in the kitchen!

Chef Mama and me! 

I cut the tofu and the vege! Oh and stir-fried the spinach! It was pretty easy actually. 

Proud of myself hehe~

And no, I can't handle fish yet. :P

Hopefully I will be able to cook more often in future! It really is fun to cook. ^^

Cheers~

Tarot

I was bored so I went to do some online tarot reading here.

Legacy of the Divine tarot

Link to tarot reading here.

Link to my results here.

Tarot Rider Waite

Link to tarot reading here.

Link to my results here.

Kabbalistic Tarot decks

Link to tarot reading here.

My results:

Note: I used the Legacy tarot.

Love Tarot

Link to tarot reading here.

My results:

Tarot "Past, Present, Future"

Link here.

My results:

The Runic Oracle

Link here.

Link to my results here.

[Update 02/06/14]

Celtic Cross Tarot

Link here.

My results:

Like I mentioned earlier, I was bored. Have fun! :)

Update!

Been quite a while since I last blogged. And I'm truly sorry for not updating more regularly! >-<

It's just that after working or a day trip, I'm pretty exhausted and lazy. And there really isn't much to talk about my work. Doing all the same stuff. More often than not, I can be found using my phone to read eBooks or playing some games.

Yes yes I know I'm being a bad girl here, but come on... Work is really dull and repetitive... If I have done my fair share of work, perhaps let me off a little? ;P

Anyway I'm looking forward to all the weekends more now that Kristal and I have planned a trip for all the weekends till it's time to go back.

Last week we went to London again to visit some of the iconic sites like the Big Ben and the West Minister Abby where Prince William and Katherine's marriage was held.

This week we will be going to beautiful York and I can't wait to see all the beautiful architectures! Got to love their buildings; those Victorian/ Georgian/ Medieval buildings and castles are all very breathtaking.

It's impossible to not imagine yourself in "leg o' mutton" sleeves on your blouse and floor length bell skirts, sweeping along the cobbled streets.

At least that was how I felt when I walked down the more olden streets. Feels like a dainty little woman strolling after a nice afternoon tea~ And then I will sub-consciously walk a little more proper and taller xD

Really makes me wonder how people in the past portray themselves. I won't like to be a submissive woman but I sure don't mind being treated like a lady by a gentleman!

Well enough of this weird fetish imagination! It's getting pretty late so I will end my post here.

Hope that I will update again soon!

Cheers, Wei Ting :)

"I miss home and I can't wait to be back"

I'm not feeling normal today. Somehow I just don't feel like interacting with anybody and don't feel like talking at all. It's not as if I'm having a bad day (though the weather is pretty gloomy this morning, I wonder if it's affecting me somehow?), or I'm having PMS. No. It's just one of those times where I just want to keep to myself.

Then again, I'm also wondering why do my parents or friends ask me these questions:

"Do you want to come back home?" "Do you miss us?" 

Of course I want to go back home. Of course I miss those I care. It's really hard for me to smile and say "yes, I want to go back home". Because while that is my true feelings, I'm not exactly happy to say it. 

What are you questioning me for when you ask those questions? Or are you trying to reassure yourselves that I'm missing home and I want to go back home? Whenever I say that "I want to go back home" to my parents, I always have the urge to cry there and then. 

But I can't because I will make them worry about me. 

I don't usually tell people how I'm truly feeling unless you are somebody I trust greatly. But I do need to get this off my mind. (Though my parents won't see this post... I do appreciate their accompany through Skype. But sometimes the questions they ask... I find it hard to laugh it off.) 

Please, if you want to ask me questions, don't ask me if I miss home or not. I know it may sound ridiculous but it is easier to handle homesickness when I don't have to keep answering people "I miss home" etc. 

I know and appreciate your thoughts behind those words, and I thank you. 

It's May now and I have always been thinking about my journey back home since March. 

So I hereby say "I miss home and I can't wait to be back".

Cheers,

Wei Ting

London Day 2 (19/04/14)

Great Portland Street (Circle line) → Arrived at Notting Hill Gate (Circle line)

First thing in the morning: Portobello Market! As early as 9 in the morning (?), we set off for the market so as in avoid the crowd that is sure to come at late morning around 11am. With stomachs empty, we were surely looking forward to getting ourselves some good food!

Other than food, you can find many other stuff in Portobello Market. In fact, it is famous for its antiques. I would say Portobello Market is pretty so-so, since I'm not an antique collector. They do sell some clothes but none really catches my eyes. >< But I was really looking forward to a bakery, The Hummingbird, which is famous for their cupcakes!

Here are some pictures!

My order:
Black Bottom &
Nutella (not shown)

Kristal's
Carrot Cake & Red Velvet

Bratwurst sausage

I forgot the name but it's potato
(Kristal's breakfast)

We walked around the market (actually we only walked in a straight line), fed our eyes with the nice vegetables, fruits and food, the long array of clothes and accessories, antiques. There were a few street performers who were either singing, playing the guitar, doing stunts, or all of the above. It was really pleasant and I'm really glad we went there early! 'Cus as we were ready to go back, the crowd is really huge and we were packed like sardines. Luckily the weather was cooling, if not we would have gotten out sweaty and sticky and grumpy. We also saw a black cat on our way back to the train station! How adorable!

Notting Hill Gate (Circle line) → Arrived at Great Portland Street (Circle line) 

After the morning spent at the Portobello Market, we went back to the hotel to deposit some stuff we got and also to enjoy our cupcakes! Mmmmm yum yum... After eating, we were ready to head off to other destinations. This time round, Kristal and I decided to go separate ways since we want to visit different places.

Regent's Park (Bakerloo line) → Changed line at Oxford Circus (Central line) → Arrived at Tottenham Court Road (Central line)

Note: I can't really remember which path I took but it should be this...

I decided to visit the British Museum since a lot of people told me to go visit this museum. It's really big and there's a lot of things to look. They have spaces dedicated to history of Roman, Greek, Egypt, China, Korea, Japan etc. 

I think I spent about 2 hours or so walking around? I even had to take a rest at the Chinese pottery corner because I was really exhausted. I took a few pictures in the museum but kinda lazy to upload them up here. If you want, you can go to my Facebook album and scroll all the way down. But I would say that the actual stuff are way nicer and better to look at than the pictures.

I really got obsessed with weiqi again :)
Found this in the Korean section

After the museum I headed off to Marble Arch, another iconic site.

Tottenham Court Road (Central line) → Arrived at Marble Arch (Central line)

I was wondering what Marble Arch was and when I saw it all I can think of is: "Oh, that's it?" Well, at least there's a very nice park nearby, Hyde Park. I had a honeycomb ice cream over at there and enjoyed the warm sunlight and gentle breeze while looking out to the green field. There were people having picnic on the field or just having a lazy day out.

Marble Arch

Speakers' Corner @ Hyde Park

Then it was around time for me to meet Kristal at King's Cross to get some souvenirs from Platform 9¾. 

I got 2 chocolate frogs, a Hogwarts pin badge and a collector metal bookmarks of the 4 houses. I think I mentioned this before in my London Day 1 post.

Marble Arch (Central line) → Changed line at Tottenham Court Road (Northern line) → Arrived at King's Cross St. Pancras (Northern line)

After that we went to Piccadilly Circus to get our dinner from Whole Food market, rushed back to the hotel to get out stuff and then rushed to Euston station to board our train.

And that's it for our 2-day London adventure! Thanks for reading up till here!

Cheers,
Wei Ting :)

A pic of my dinner to end my post :D